Making the drive from K3 to the North Side of Chicago is nearly always arduous; in this case, it was even moreso. A collision on the Dan Ryan Expressway backed up traffic for miles, and too much idling in the jam meant that I had to make an emergency stop for gas – in the heart of the city, at LaSalle and Ontario. Eventually I showed up at the restaurant where we were scheduled to meet up. Des paid for dinner for us all. I was very grateful for this, because I’d spent practically all my dinner money buying gas, and without her help I would have been stuck sipping water or something like that.
Des wore a lavender shirt, which I found out is one of her favorite colors. She has a very youthful skin, face, and body, but her eyes are absolutely ancient in their unfathomable depths. More than once over the course of the evening, part of me wished I could see what they had seen – and part of me emphatically did not. In the slight motions one normally performs while at a lengthy dinner and talk, she moved differently from the rest of us; she seemed more careful and deliberate, almost as if she didn’t know how to be truly casual. Maybe she did once but her body has forgotten.
In person, Des was not really anything like how I had imagined she would be. She challenged all of us, and clearly can be one tough cookie when she wants to be one. I had imagined she would be more carefree. I was mistaken. Online privacy is critical for Des.
Inevitably, the evening came to an end. I have no idea when, or even if, I’ll see Des again; I do hope it will happen, and the sooner the better.